Another trying day. When I have to drive, I drive really really slowly and carefully, because I am so distracted it's dangerous. Dad is getting slightly worse, because his infection in gaining momentum, but nobody can find where it's stationed. It's scary and I freak out from time to time. We bought him a phone, but it just saddened him, because he fears he'll have to stay in the hospital for ages. I saw him again in the evening, it felt awful. General made me take a pill to calm down. I hate being so incredibly powerless.